Bothered

I am bothered by myself

Caring a lot not to offend anyone

I am bothered by myself

Holding onto feeling 

Longer than what i should

I am bothered by the thought 

Should it really be this bothersome

What's the cost of a mind so calm

Not bothered, by such thoughts

When your piece of mind is at stake

You are sleeping in your thoughts, 

while you are awake

You struggle, to be understood by others 

You cant keep up with yourself

Nor by the changes aroud yourself

The people, their affection, 

Their anger their rejection!

It shatters you when you get this thought

Am i really loved at all?!

Its tiresome to be a rebel 

It looks all lustrous in a fable

You know everyone loves you 

And you love them back

But you get defensive, 

Cause you've never learnt to give love back

It gets hard sometimes ,

to make up your mind 

To not get bothered and just mind your wine!